I was sitting at my desk at work, going about my usual day…working while planning the rest of my evening…when I hear my boss say in a loud and shocked voice:
MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD!
I literally yelled from the other end of the hallway:
“WHATTTTT?!”
I never yell at work! I was in shock. It just seemed unreal. Michael Jackson has been inspiring me my whole life. With a big family, there has been a lot of death in my life with the older generation passing. An odd and sad fact, but a handful of my friends have lost a parent. I have felt and seen a lot of real and deep heartache.
The passing of Michael Jackson hurt less of course, but felt different. Like my friend Jose said, it was kind of like feeling sick to your stomach…and a dull ache in my heart.
His music is beautiful. His dancing unreal. His talent has inspired millions. Yet his life was so hard. He made many mistakes which made him so so human. Those mistakes were broadcasted to the whole world. Unlike with other superstars….the whole world listened. I can’t imagine the life he lead. The supression. I can’t imagine the life he lead, the stardom…being bigger than life!
What I can imagine is his beauty within. No one can make music like that. I really don’t have the words to explain. I wish I did.
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Some people made me angry today and yesterday. I’d like to share that too. But I also like to share that I am over it.
Here’s the facebook status convo (haha):
Andrew: didn’t MJ die back in the ’90s? Oh wait, that was his career. Sad when anyone dies, but let’s face it, he’s been dead for a while, he just never got the memo. That’s been his corpse walking around for the last decade, doing bad things and ruining his early legacy.
Matt:
Matt Dillon at 4:29pm June 25
How do you really feel?!?
Anna Rivera Golla:
Anna Rivera Golla at 4:41pm June 25
There is no early legacy, just LEGACY. His music touched my life and always will 
He deserves respect.
andrew!
Roheela:
Roheela Shah at 4:50pm June 25
um, in case you didn’t get the memo, he had a tour scheduled starting SOON, with 50 sold out shows. he might’ve made some bad decisions my friend, but his career was in NO WAY dead.
Andrew:
Andrew at 4:54pm June 25
Respect for the dead, may he rest in peace. But his own actions lead to the destruction of his legacy. He should have pulled an Elvis, and got out after HIStory.
Jackie:
Jackie at 5:35pm June 25
Wow, hopefully no one speaks of you in such a bad manner when you pass!! Everyone has their opinion but to say he’s been a walking corpse is pretty bad…just my opinion!
Beckie:
Beckie at 7:19pm June 25
U crack me up – Lol! Amazing how many people are defending him actually…
David:
David at 7:07am June 26
haha I’m with ya Andew!
Anna:
Anna at 8:46am June 26
Whether you’re a fan or not…it doesn’t matter. What matters is “if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all”…which isn’t always such a big deal…but DANG on the day that any HUMAN dies I think that rule should apply a little more. It’s not only disrespectful to him, but to his family, friends, and fans. His influence … Read Moreis worldwide and his music is genious. His inspiration fueled the careers of thousands of musicians, singers, and dancers…maybe even some artists that you hold close to your heart. If you have one! (just kidding)….(on the last part).
I just found this flat out rude…but i’m done now!
And yes, it is AMAZING that people are defending him. Speaks for itself.
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It made me so mad to the verge of tears. Which kinda made me laugh a little bit. I didn’t realize it, but I guess I’m an MJ fanatic too. I’m over this because it takes longer to reach people through anger….it’s easier to reach them through inspiration, friendship, love…and in Michaels case:
MUSIC…and all of the above!
Ps.
My top 3 MJ songs: “I just can’t stop loving you”, “The girl is Mine”, and “The way you make me feel”